My friend was wrapping up our conversation via text message a couple weeks ago, and she ended with something I’ll never forget. “Remember Be Anxious for Nothing. Love you.” Wow. Do I have to tell you what a godly, encouraging friend she is? I needed those words more than I knew at the time. I don’t consider myself an anxious person anymore (remember how the Lord rescued me from a life of clinical panic disorder with agoraphobia 7 years ago?) However, cancer and just plain life can tempt us to think troublesome thoughts. Every quarter I go through testing to determine if the chemo drugs are still keeping the cancer under control. The outcome was good again. The oncologist told me that the cancer is stable. It’s always a relief to hear. But…she also added that the pet scan showed a (non-cancerous) change in my liver.
My oncologist said that I needed to see a GI specialist for my liver. My first thought was my friend’s words “be anxious for nothing.” I was tired when I heard this news and am tired right now from the chemo, the busy weeks, the side effects, and the process of being at the hospital so much of the time. To be honest, the last thing I want is a new doctor or a new medical problem. “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” These are the words of the apostle Paul from Philippians 4:6-7. So I’m giving my anxiety and tiredness to the Lord. I’ve poured my heart out to Him, and I’m thankful for His peace and His presence. I know I am His, and He is mine.
I went to see the specialist, and he gave me the diagnosis of presumptive cirrhosis of the liver. My scan showed scarring on the liver. Of course the damage stems from the chemotherapy. I am going to have an endoscopy / scope on June 4 for the doctor to determine a concise diagnosis and treatment (which would probably be medication). Meanwhile, please pray for me. Your prayers mean absolutely everything. Thank you for keeping up with me on this journey.
You may have seen or been messaged about a “Go Fund Me” that has been setup for me. I’m thankful for long-time, dear friends Tj and Dana Todd who are managing this fundraiser for us. Finances have been extremely difficult with Mom staying at home full-time taking care of me, medical expenses, and daily needs. The hardship we are experiencing is real. Since the campaign launched, we have been overwhelmed by the outpouring of generosity from so many of you. We don’t have words. This has already begun to relieve much stress. If you are able to donate any amount, we would greatly appreciate it. We are almost halfway to our goal. You are making a difference in our lives, and we are overwhelmed with gratitude. Please check out the “Go Fund Me” link here https://gofund.me/ed72c334 Most of all, thank you for your prayers!
Melissa
